Tuesday, January 27, 2004

this process is taking way to long and i always stumble backwards and fall down.

i suck at life.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

Friday, January 16, 2004

i'm so gross and i can't stand it.

help the demons in my head and let me be content for once.

god, i need to make changes for real this time.

Sunday, January 11, 2004

hi...i hate me again.

need to get back in control.

lose weight and be a stick.

get good grades.

get a real boyfriend that i like.

try and find myself.

i need a fucking reality check.

Thursday, January 08, 2004

i've gone a little off track but i'll get back on tomorrow. i've no worries about it. i know this time it's for real.

my mommy loves me cause she made me a smoothie.

tomorrow is the concert and i'm meeting claudia at 6. i'm happy.

i hope matt's mom gets better but part of me doesn't only so that i won't have to see him. i really need to do the right thing this time, no matter what. i really need to feel good about myself. i really just need to love me.

i'm black and blue and the sutures are hurting. fucking ay. gonna watch some sex and the city.

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

i have no energy anymore. this barely eating thing is good but making me so tired.

at least i'm finally feeling good about myself.

can't wait to be back at school.

Monday, January 05, 2004

why does it constantly feel like i'm making mistakes with him? i want things to work out this time, i really really do. i think it could be so great but the issues are all within me and i need to get past them. i think a more conscious effort will do, i certainly hope i'm right.

only 12 more days...

Saturday, January 03, 2004

i'm going to see the boy george musical, taboo this saturday. sure to be a riot. oh how i love broadway musicals, especially when they're about the culture club.

bought pink floyd, blondie, and pat benetar cd's today...coolness.

i am in need of a haircut.

i miss matt so much that it scares me. i think i'm in love. oh jeez.

Friday, January 02, 2004

my mouth hurts and the codeine just ain't cutting it...

poo. i think this will be a movie marathon kinda weekend.

Thursday, January 01, 2004

an alternate identity of sorts...and the plot thickens.

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